Dear Body,
I am sorry for the ways I berated you and felt ashamed of you. I’m sorry for how much I took you for granted and even used you to evaluate my worth.
I’m sorry for the lies I told you and the pressure I put on you to perform. I’m sorry for hiding, ignoring, and putting you in a corner.
I’m sorry for wishing you looked differently and blaming you for my lack of confidence. I’m sorry for the names I called you and the times I wanted you to disappear.
The truth is that you are wonderfully and fearfully made, and God knew you before you were even formed in your mother's womb. You are a temple and a sacred home for the Holy Spirit.
Thank you for walking all the miles, bearing all the weight, and generously giving of yourself.
I see your aging scars, baby scars, cancer scars and surgery scars. Thank you for not giving out on me. Thank you for holding me together. Thank you for the miraculous way you healed and nurtured me.
Thank you for giving me the ability to taste, see, smell, hear, and touch.
Thank you for giving me the privilege of housing three babies - for the heartbeats I got to hear - the little legs I got to feel in my belly - how you fed and gave them life.
Thank you for healing my breast of cancer cells and then using my own fat to restore that breast back to shape. I’m so grateful to you.
Thank you for how you have used my hands and arms to provide comfort, love, and protection to my children, husband, and others.
Thank you for my heart and other organs that continue working each day apart from any conscious effort of mine.
Thank you for producing tears, laughter, joy, and even grief. Thank you for showing me how to embrace life and be resilient. Thank you for my emotions.
Thank you for the logical part of my brain, too. I need you.
Thank you for my brown eyes. I like them. Thank you for the response I have to nature and fresh air. I like that, too.
Thank you for the taste of pizza, tacos, and cheesecake. Thank you for the smell of coffee.
Thank you for the art of making love and receiving love.
Thank you for alerting me when something isn't right and when something, is.
Dearest body, you deserve a long and tender hug. Thank you for being with me all the days of my life and for growing with me.
There is no one else like you.
You are fabulous.
You are miraculous.
You are God’s masterpiece.
You are mine and we are His.
Written by,
Dee Kostelyk
4.11.24🌷
